I feel uninspired; a lack to create, to meditate on things that has been happening in my life
The sting of betrayal lasts longer than you think
Let It Go
I need you to know, all you dear readers, that you have to let all your insecurities go. This will prevent most of the heart break, stupidity, and regrets because that’s how it starts in the first place.
If you are insecure about yourself, you do not trust yourself. Without trust, there is no love and with out love then… What’s the point of even trying to be happy?
Don’t say it’s somebody else’s fault that you’re hurt - You set yourself up for this!
If they weren’t complete arseholes in the first place, why even give them a chance? You hurt yourself with letting someone in when you knew that you’re not even comfortable with yourself.
Think about it.
Don’t ever think I’m not there for you
You’ve got me all squeamish and that’s a feat you shouldn’t be proud of
This afternoon, I sat next to the window on the afternoon train and watched the rushing scenes that passed me by. The train stopped at a station and I saw in the distance an elderly woman, bathroom-robed back hunched and shuffling up a small hill of cracked pavement with house slippers. The expression on her face seemed to be pain or concern, I wasn’t sure, and she used the meshed steel fence that ran across the street as her support.
My heart started to ache for a total stranger. Why was she alone? Why isn’t anyone helping her? The thought of the possibility of her being lonely in life made it even worse. But like a mindless fool, I just kept on watching.
Then I suddenly looked in the distance and saw what was on the other side of that fence. It was a beautiful garden with tall, proud trees and healthy green flora. It was as if she was passing the perimeters of her Eden and only her fingers tips lightly brush the beauty of nature.
She ceased to walk, looked down, crouched ever so slowly and picked up an empty chip packet. The expression of pain and determination covered her face whilst trying to get back up. She did and kept walking, looking onward and continued her slow, scuffled pace up the broken sidewalk.
Dear lady, you made my heart burst in the matter of seconds. That act of kindness to the environment and perseverance is superb in all levels of humanity and though you suffer from physical limitations, you still made that effort to pick up something that wasn’t yours and do a good deed. I pray for you, kind stranger, that you will be looked after and cared for.
Always love your Eden despite anything.
[Source: krysspythots - 23rd February 2011]
Science & Love
So I actually took one of those free ‘Mx News’ newspapers and came across the section, “Science of Love.” Interesting…
It was reporting how a scientist has found that attraction or ‘love’ is linked to the ‘chemistry of your personality type and how it matches- or clashes- with your partner.’
There are four types of personalities -
- Explorers - people who seek novelty and have the chemical, dopamine, dominating in their personality.
- Group Builders - a serotonin dominated personality which is calm, loyal and love order.
- Directors - One who is direct, decisive, tough-minded and are strategic thinkers. Testosterone dominates this personality.
- Negotiators - A highly imaginative and empathetic personality which is dominated by oestrogen.
Now, according to this research, people have two of these personalities and based on that, our compatibility with people are judged against this criteria. But the thing is… Not everyone can be placed into a certain personality (even if it’s two) perfectly. The reason for that is obvious - everyone is different.
Also, what are these chemicals they name?! All I know is that testosterone usually relates to males. So, I did some research (googling)
- Dopamine - a hormone that affects the functions of the brain that relate to working memory, reward, voluntary movement and motivation etc.
In relation to the term ‘explorer,’ I guess they relate this because explorers are motivated and like to get a positive end result. But using the term ‘novelty?’ I wouldn’t have chosen that. - Serotonin - not a hormone, but is known as the ‘happiness hormone’ because it greatly contributes to feelings of well-being.
Group builders like order, which affects well-being, so Serotonin would come into this. - Testosterone - the principal male sex hormone. It is also essential for health and well being.
Directors are, I’m sad to say, usually connotated with the male gender, and they also like order, or the right direction, affecting well-being. - Oestrogen - the female sex hormone. Relates to emotions and mood.
Women are usually classed as the ‘emotional gender’ so the use of Oestrogen to be the chemical to factor in the ‘empathetic’ part of this personality is plausible.
So with this in mind, I’ve come to think about the clashing of personalities. Yes, it does happen but it cannot just be simply put as that? The cliche ‘opposites do attract’ is plausible and so this process cannot be 100% accurate.
In the end, the scientist said
“If you know who you are, and how you and others love, you can find and keep real love.” - Dr. Helen Fisher
FREAKING SCIENCE! The best way I can comment this is - ergo.
[Source: krysspythots - 22nd February 2011]
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I had a dream and you were there, sitting opposite me with your legs crossed; on a hill amongst the long grass reeds.
There was havoc surrounding us but all I noticed was that you were there; right in front of me and looking into my eyes with out any remorse.
There was no tension and nothing was held back between us, our emotions were opened and we were thriving in that feeling.
Your hand was holding mine and you kept it there. When I realised this, you didn’t flinch back or looked away. You stayed there, smiling humbly and I knew that you cared. And I was glad.
When I woke up, that image was still vivid in my mind’s eye and I grew sad.
Because all I wanted from you is to know that you cared.
[Source: krysspythots - 1st March 2011]
There are no bounds to what we can do; that’s just how we made life to be
I will love you.
When you’re happy or sad.
When you’re at home or out and about.
When you’re with me and when you’re not.
Through the best and the worst times of your life, I will love you.
Don’t ever doubt that.
